A Sigh of Relief

I can breath. Finally. Now it is time to focus on Walk to Remember, my health and my family. Tonight we walked out of our office a one cheery group of people knowing that live can now continue with its regularly scheduled programing.

Today went as normal deadline days goes it was nice and calm then it was crazy and finally things wrapped up. That is the way it goes.

We left work at 6:15. I drove home in the traffic and walked in the door to my favorite phrase in the world: "Mommy" followed by running to me and a huge bear hug. It was the greatest moment ever.... well for this year.

So now we resume life....... what a wonderful thing to say.

She Said What?

There is really not that much that a toddler can tell you to hurt your feelings. But Mya said the most gut wrenching thing to me last night. It hurt, I did not know what to say and I had to fight back tears.

"I don't want you, I want Daddy"

Yes Mya I know that I am not a big part of your life right now. Yes Mya I love you will all my heart and this hurts me just as much as it hurts you. Mya we both know this is hard on you, that is why you father has been sleeping downstairs for the last three weeks so you could sleep with me. Yes Mya, Mommy knows she is working too much to not be able to spend fun time with you. Mya seems to be taking this time of year very hard. She is exhibiting more of her terrible two's. She is being rude, bratty and not listening more and more. Thankfully we are in the home stretch. 17 more days of this then we working on getting back to a normalcy that as a family we are comfortable with.

To add to the fun when we got to school this morning Mya got upset because she wanted to go through her lunch bag and her teacher and I said no. The teacher handed her a Maraca to divert her attention and she threw right back at the teacher. I then took her right outside and scolded her. After she calmed down we went back inside Mya apologized gave her teacher a hug and said sorry (looking down, since my child can not look at you and apologize) and gave me a kiss and a hug and we all went on with our day.

For Mya's sake I am ready for tax time to be done.