Wednesday, January 30, 2008

13w5d: Contacted Dr. Prema to get the name of another specialist and we now have an appointment with Dr. Shah on February 5th, my mom's birthday!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

13w4d: Eddie and I went back to Dr. DeVore today. Our little "A" is a fighter. "B" looks good still. We did not see eye to eye with Dr. DeVore after he did the Ultrasound he asked us if we had thought about our options. Well the problem is he never gave us options. Eddie asked the doctor a question and the nurse rolled her eyes like it was a stupid questions. So after we talked about it we have decided to contact Dr. Prema to see if there is another specialist we can see.

Monday, January 21, 2008

12w3d: Since Eddie and I have been paranoid about everything, I went to urgent care tonight for cramping. Cramping turned out to be another bladder infection and dehydration. So due to the circumstances they did an ultrasound and blood work, it turns out the cramping is another bladder infection and Dehydration. I don’t have a clue how I can be dehydrated when I have been drinking over 100 oz of water a day. Baby “A” is still fighting. Baby "B" is a thumb sucker.

Why?

Why has this happend to me? Why has this happend to Eddie and I? I don't understand what we have done to deserve this. I really don't know how to process that one of my babies is sick. We have just been settling into the idea that we will be welcoming two babies into our lives this summer.

I feel guilty because we had no clue how we were going to make life work with two babies. But at the same time we were getting excited about it too. I feel like I have let me child down. Our little bean is sick and it is something that Eddie or I have. Yet we had no clue. If this has happend what else will happen.

Another feeling I have is how can I be excited about this pregnancy. We want our babies. They are a wanted addition to our family. Eddie and I have been together for nearly 7 years. We have been married for over 3 years and everyone was starting to think we would never start a family.

I just don't know what to think right now. I know that the next two weeks are going to be hard. The doctor said "A" would most likely not make it 2 more weeks. I hate the fact that I am not going to know when he or she leave us. I hate that we will go to the doctor in two weeks and he or she will be gone.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

11w4d: Eddie and I went to the specialist yesterday and did not get good news. We will be loosing Baby "A" in the next couple of weeks. It has Chromosomal Defects, that now include fluid in the lungs and stomach. Baby "B" seems to be in no harm as of right now. We went to our primary OB/Gyn this morning to follow up with her and she said that there is a 95% chance that everything will be OK with Baby "B". We go back to see the specialist on January 29th to follow up. Eddie and I are doing OK now, considering. The doctor says I will not feel anything when the time comes. So now all our focus is keeping Baby "B" in good shape. Right now it is doing really good. The specialist moved my due date up two more days. In a way I am happy that "B" will be getting a lot of special attention now. Eddie and I are doing OK. We went to a movie last night to keep our minds off of it. The only problem I am having right now is talking on the phone. I am OK typing, just not talking about it. Eddie has been talking to our parents. I am very thankful to have him.Update: Baby "B" was measuring at 2days larger then due date. My due date will stay August 1st, 2008!

Friday, January 4, 2008

10w0d: It has been a month since my last appointment. I am now 10 weeks on the dot. I have been sick for a week now, I wish this cold would go away. Eddie and I went to the doctor. Eddie was in amazement to see our two little ones. Found out today our "official" due date is August 1st. Dr. Prema says we will deliver between July 4th and July 15th if all goes well. I asked her about our small insurance issue and she said no matter what she wants us to deliver at Huntington Memorial, in Pasadena. Eddie is not happy about that, it means a longer car ride with him freaking out. She also refereed us to another specialist to preform better Ultrasounds. So I will be going to the doctor every two weeks. Once a month for each doctor. Just to see our two little pieces of fruit is such a blessing. Now I will see them twice a month and I am very lucky for that. Eddie's face was priceless and I will never forget seeing him like that ever. I would have to say it tops seeing him when we got married. Appointment with the new doctor is January 15th, next appointment with Dr. Prema is February 1st. The two photos on the bottom are A and the top is B. For now they are A and B to us. We have not pet names. Just A and B.