Going Back To Work.

The time has come and I went back to work today. When I left the house I was OK. I took Mya over to Alice's and I felt OK.

When I got to work that was a different story. I walked into our office and there was a huge sign over my desk "Welcome Back Cassie" I lost it right there. It is a good thing I was the only one in the office.

I continued about my day and Alice would send me pictures and updates of Mya all day. That made my day. I left work at 5:30 and I can tell you I did not miss traffic one bit. When I got home I was so happy to see my baby. I don't know if she was happy to see me but I was happy to see her.

So for now we will work on a new routine. Tomorrow Alice will keep Mya again and on Wednesday she will go to the babysitters.

I Finally Found Someone To Help Me!!!!!!

After making I don't know how many phone calls I finally got through to someone. How I can not thank Mrs. Debbie Balsey enough. I don't know what number I pressed today but I got through. She answered and I knew it was not the place. I calmly explained to her my situation. I told her I have been trying for a month to get through to someone that can help me. I told her our story and that I have Sophia's death certificate that states she is 1st of twins and that Mya's birth certificate says she is a singleton. Debbie was almost in tears, then I was almost in tears.

She told me she is very sorry for our loss and that she is also very sorry it was not correct the first time. She said she would be sending me paperwork in the mail for the amendment and that I would need to send a check for $14. She said she will send me a postage paid envelope that is addressed directly to her and that we will get this taken care of.

I feel better but I hope she really is going to help us.

A Night To Remember

A few weeks ago I got in the mail a post card from Huntington Hospital. They were having a ceremony for all the children that passed away there.

Tonight, Eddie, Mya and I attended "A Night To Remember" It was a quick yet beautiful ceremony, the Chaplain read a story and they read all of the names of the children that have passed. It was a beautiful evening. The weather was nice and it was wonderful night to reflect on Sophia.

Tonight while Eddie was walking around holding Mya all I could think was that I hope one day I have to courage to tell Mya about Sophia. I know I will have to but when will be the right time? Here is a picture of Mya being such a good little girl while the Chaplain was reading.