Happy Thanksgiving.
I hope everyone had a nice peaceful day. I got up and cooked. I did not sleep so well and I was busy prepping for Thanksgiving. I had intended on getting a little more sleep as I know we are going shopping very shortly, but what are you going to do?
We had a small Thanksgiving with our immediate family. It was nice and peaceful.
This year I am thankful for so much. I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for a understand work place. I am thankful for the new peace that crafting has brought me again. I am thankful for a peaceful day. I am thankful for my understanding friends and all of those who have been there for me and have been an ear. I am thankful for the beauty of life. I am thankful for a crazy little muchaca that keeps me going. I am thankful to be Sophia's mother and all the strength she gave me to do the positive work I do. I am thankful to be cancer free. I am thankful for my health, and thankful to be on the mend.
Tonight at dinner Mya told us all she was thankful for and as the list has always stated, she is thankful for Bozzy Cat and you, you, you and you as she pointed at our dinner table.
It will be interesting to see how long I can go without crashing. I am sticking to a list and that is that. I am sure I will find a couple things for me but it is OK, I think I am worth it.
So I hope everyone had a nice day and if you are going shopping you find all the deals you are looking for.
Happy Thanksgiving!
I lost one of my twin daughters in utero. Since the loss of Sophia Rene I have kept a journal of finding my new normal.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
A Conversation I Did Not Think I Would Be Having So Soon.
Tonight at bed time Mya and I were having a little coversation.
I started with what Mya is thankful for. Every time I have asked her this question she has always started her list with "Bozzy Cat" and then the list goes on for a minute or so.
The she asked me is tomorrow was a school day and I told her tomorrow was a special school day, as tomorrow is open house. I explained to her that both Mommy and Daddy would be picking her up and that we would get to talk to Mrs. Monie to see how she was doing. She told me that Mrs. Monie told her she would have a brother. I told her "really is that what Mrs. Monie told you" her response was "yes" Then Mya told me "and Sophia is my sister"
At that time my heart just melted. I did not know what to tell her so I told her "yes Sophia is your sister and she is an angel in heaven now"
The rest of our conversation kind of went as follows:
Mya: No Sophia is here with us and Sophia is my sister.
Me: Yes she is here looking over you and yes Sophia is your sister.
Mya: No Mommy not Sophia the elephant, my sister Sophia.
Me: I know Mya. Sophia the elephant is here so you remember Sophia your sister. Sophia grew her wings and is now an angel in heaven.
Mya: Mommy, when will I grow my wings?
Me: One day Mya, in a very long time you will grow wings.
Mya: So one day Sophia and I will be able to fly together.
Me: Yes you can fly together. I love you Mya. I will see you in the morning.
Mya: I love you Mommy.
So there you have it. A conversation out of the blue. Nothing I would have ever dreamed up in a million years. I never thought at this stage of the game I would be talking about Sophia with Mya like this.
I love my girls.
I started with what Mya is thankful for. Every time I have asked her this question she has always started her list with "Bozzy Cat" and then the list goes on for a minute or so.
The she asked me is tomorrow was a school day and I told her tomorrow was a special school day, as tomorrow is open house. I explained to her that both Mommy and Daddy would be picking her up and that we would get to talk to Mrs. Monie to see how she was doing. She told me that Mrs. Monie told her she would have a brother. I told her "really is that what Mrs. Monie told you" her response was "yes" Then Mya told me "and Sophia is my sister"
At that time my heart just melted. I did not know what to tell her so I told her "yes Sophia is your sister and she is an angel in heaven now"
The rest of our conversation kind of went as follows:
Mya: No Sophia is here with us and Sophia is my sister.
Me: Yes she is here looking over you and yes Sophia is your sister.
Mya: No Mommy not Sophia the elephant, my sister Sophia.
Me: I know Mya. Sophia the elephant is here so you remember Sophia your sister. Sophia grew her wings and is now an angel in heaven.
Mya: Mommy, when will I grow my wings?
Me: One day Mya, in a very long time you will grow wings.
Mya: So one day Sophia and I will be able to fly together.
Me: Yes you can fly together. I love you Mya. I will see you in the morning.
Mya: I love you Mommy.
So there you have it. A conversation out of the blue. Nothing I would have ever dreamed up in a million years. I never thought at this stage of the game I would be talking about Sophia with Mya like this.
I love my girls.
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