This phrase was recently written to me in an email from a family member. Since Wednesday it has been sticking with me. Maybe this phrase is meant for me.
It is no secret I am always on the go. I always have something going on. In the famous words of Forrest Gump "When I was tired I slept".
I am very thankful in today's world to have a job. Though I bitch about working Saturday's right now I am thankful to have a job. Not only is it a job, but a job with bosses that are understanding. So understanding that the day after "D" as I sat at work at my desk and cried half the day because I could not handle the news Eddie and I just received. So understanding the day after Sophia passed away I did not have to come to work, but when I did show up flowers were delivered to my desk. So understanding when I was put on bed rest 2 weeks before income taxes were due, though my name was cursed they made due. So understanding that after a 6 month hiatus I was welcomed back to work. So understanding that when I had a sick preemie it was OK. So understanding that it is OK to be a MOMMY. Now so understanding that I can run Walk to Remember, Los Angeles at work.
I also have a part time job bookkeeping. I have Walk to Remember, Los Angeles. I always have something to do. I like it like that. I honestly have to say. I think my life is better this way.
My family is most important to me. As Mya and I were driving home last night she told me "you are that Daddy and Daddy is the Mommy now" I almost broke down crying when she told me that. I know that I have been very busy at work recently, but it still hurt. Then last night when I told Eddie what Mya has said, he said "It's true, what do you want me to tell you, it is all going to be OK?" Again it hurt.
Now I am off to work. Mya and Eddie will spend the morning with Alice. I will work until 1 or 2.